March.....already.

(late) 

I’ve never been one to make New Years resolutions. But this year, I decided to think about it. Think about what I could do, that would actually make a change in my life, that I could keep up with and that would be something meaningful.  After the death of a formerly close friend, the struggle of watching a friend lose her mother, and thinking of the regrets I might have in my life if I were to lose those closest to me, I decided to make a resolution.  NO REGRETS. It’s a New Year’s resolution that I’m hoping will last a life time. I want to keep my angry words out of my mouth and out of my head. I want to tell all my friends and my family that I love them and have them know that I mean it. I want to show these people that I love them.

My next resolution has been an on-going struggle in my life. It’s to find balance in everything I do. I need to understand that sometimes I don’t have to go (pardon the expression) “balls out” in everything I do. A good, healthy balance of the things I need and want in life are the answer to the happiness that I always seem to be in search of. I have all of these unfinished projects and ideas because I throw my all into them and don’t feel like if I can’t devote hours and hours to something, it doesn’t deserve the 30 minutes I DO have to devote to it. I want to work on this and change it.

The next one is to get involved. In something, anything! Church, gardening, community projects and in anything that sparks my interest and awakens the passion in my soul. Today as I’m writing this, I have two goals to complete by April 1^st. 

The first goal is to get involved in KONY 2012 and get at least 3 other people involved. I want to purchase the “kit” and encourage one other person to purchase it and go from there.http://kony2012.s3-website-us-east-1.amazonaws.com/

 The second goal is to finish my mom’s mantel that I started for her over a year ago. I’m committing to working on it for 2 hours this weekend. Hopefully I can gather some strength, insight and learn to focus on the things that matter in life, rather than on things that just aren’t really worth it.

I also know I need to be better about updating my blog. Not because I’m worried that anyone reads it, but because I know it’s a project I started and would like to continue with.